Milspouse Friday Fill-in: Panic Attack Edition

Don't freak out, I am okay. I suffer with panic attacks from time to time. The latest crap with the Navy was bound to trigger one, so I knew it was coming. It's just shitty timing, not that there is a good time to have one. I feel badly because they're rare, but when I get them I tend to freak people out in part because they're so rare that I am not immediately aware of what is happening to me. So I freaked Senior Jefe out last night on the phone. Not my finest moment, but what can I do?

So, given this. I am trying to chillax before I have to go teach this morning and since I don't want to talk about the actual shit in my life, I thought I'd do this instead.

1. With PCS moves happening every few years, do you take the time to paint and decorate your home? submitted by Life as Mrs. JPT

                   We've always lived in apartments until I bought the house at BIGU (since I knew I'd be here a while). Thus, the easy answer is no, I don't paint. I do have a large collection of framed art that goes with us from place to place. That is the extent of my decorating. The first time I ever painted a room in my life was after I bought the house here at BIGU. The previous owner painted the LR/K/DR area (all connected) yellow, eggplant and pumpkin. It was a major eyesore and thus had to be addressed.

2. If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be? submitted by Standing By Him

                  I have no idea. Where I live is not particularly important to me, so I can't answer this question. It never occurred to me to think about it.

3.What inspired you to start your blog?  submitted by Pink Combat Boots

                 I have blogged off and on for years. I stopped shortly after I started graduate school because I didn't appreciate people at school reading my blog and then making comments about it at school. It lead to some misunderstandings, because they seemed to read all kinds of things into what I wrote that I didn't think and didn't say and then they would get offended by it. Best to just leave it a bit. This is why my blog is on the downlow. I figure they'll have to make an effort to track this new incarnation down. When they do, I'll pack up and move again.

                 Ultimately though, I blog for me. I find it cathartic. Plus, my longest running friendships with milspouses have come from blogging. The women I have met through my blog already have a pretty good idea of who I am and thus tend to stick around because nothing I say or do surprises them. This is not true for most milspouses who first meet me in real life and don't understand why I am so different from what ever it is that they have come to expect milspouses to be.

4. What is the weirdest thing you’ve ever seen on base? submitted byAdventures in Life

           I have no idea. I'm kind of a get in, get out, get on your way type. And after working as an environmental contractor, I think most of the things people think are weird, I've come to accept as normal.

5. Which historical figure (politician, writer, artist, scientist, actor, etc…) would you like to have dinner with?  submitted by Army of Two

          This is a great question. I definitely would like to sit down with Thomas Jefferson. I know his view points on women weren't always so enlightened, but the guy was generally brilliant and I am a huge fan. I used to arrange my lunches around the Thomas Jefferson Hour on NPR when we lived in VA.

          My second choice would be Julius Caesar. He was an absolutely brilliant nation builder and military and political tactician. I have always been fascinated by him